Family

So, this christmas brought our family together right? ...well...kinda...

Everything was fine up until tonight, where we had our "christmas" with my mom...my sister, who hates my mom, was already being uptight and nonwilling.....

but last night, my step grandma, grandma fran, called my sister out (in private conversation) about being a instigator and getting my family to look down on me and look up on her.

over the past few holidays, she has told my grandparents and extended family that i: have a tattoo, smoke and am a nude model.

As devoted catholics they are...they of course chewed me out until i felt like a piece of shit....while my sister sat back and watched me feel horrible with a smirk on her face....

Why? why would she do this?

I feel like its because she realizes that i am truely able to succeed  her in many ways and she feels like that she needs to point out my "flaws"....

Grandma Fran said "you know...my parents would have hit me if i ever ratted on my siblings like that"....that really hit home for me...i realized that i truely cant trust the one i should be able to trust most. That hurts.

I realize that we are two different people with two different mind sets and philosophies...but the sibling bond has such strength that should never be broken for personal gain.

This hurts. She is one of the only people that i was able to vent to thinking of total secrecy....but now, i know that i am unable to do so.

it sucks. a lot. but such is life. you learn what works and what doesnt...and clearly this doesnt work...and i shall move on, persevere and conquer from here forth.... and if she wishes to burn this bridge, i'll gladly hold the torch to my end as she does to hers....